I lost 11 pounds on the stomach flu diet this weekend. Ok, so I know its not a diet but who knew 11 pounds could come off so fast. I know some of that will come back but what really annoys me is I started my period and all my bloat is gone, so I do not know how much of it is from sick and how much of it is finally no bloat.

Tonight I am having a turkey sandwich on sour dough bread for dinner. I hope it does escape and that I am over this horrid stomach thing.

*sigh*

I am still dealing with that 5 pounds. Today I was at 12 pounds lost since Jan 2nd. I have to make a confession. I did not exercise this week. I need to push myself to do a mile at the very least two times a week. I've been so good about breakfast and eating right that I am just discouraged.

Goals for this week:
1. Do the mile workout 2 times this week
2.Try to not be jealous of the 25-30 pounds my husband has lost.
3. Get through my period without eating one piece of candy.
4. Make a new recipe for dinner this week.

Being a woman trying to lose weight is difficult when you have to deal with bloating. This week has been my bloating week. I've gained and lost the same five pounds over and over again this week.

Last night for dessert I have a fat free banana cream pie yogurt and 100 calorie pack fudge cookies. Best diet snack ever.

I FEEL infinitely better already and I've only lost around 15 pounds. Its totally crazy.

That is how much I have lost since my first day on the scale. Ten pounds may not seem like a lot to anyone else but I'm taking it and running. It is HARD to go from a unhealthy life to a healthy one. My asshole husband has lost 19 pounds and I want to sock him for it but I am reminded by the fact he thought old scale was perfect and it weighed me wrong everyday sometimes a 20 pound difference. As a man he also gets to lose more quicker. Jerk! I guess I still like him and all.

Tonight is chili again. It is so good and so filling. We have chili one night and chili salads the next. It sounds really gross but is really good. We spent more at the grocery store this week but we bought all healthy foods. It is so strange to see the crap and walk right past it. We still have deserts, diet coke cake, FF ice cream but its not the same. Last night I had a bowl of cherries for dessert. They were lovely.

Yes, I am pretty fricking happy over my nine pounds.

The scale hasnt shown much movement for me.. maybe a few pounds. I loathe it but my husband thinks its perfect because it weights him less. Asshole. So Saturday I got it in my head to measure my body and check it again in a week. Inches mean more to me then pounds anyway. It was almost more painful to take the measurements and see what they were then to get on the scale. Scary but I just reminded myself that I AM getting healthy regardless of the scale. Healthy is better then the fast food,munchie, binge eating whore I was.

I feel much better. I noticed on Saturday night when we used the rest of our flex points that I got super tired after dinner. That hasnt happened since I started WW. It only reaffirms for me that I am on the right track. I did my menu plan for the week and we went shopping. I need to get out of my sandwich rut that I am in right now. Its good, easy and fast when I am busy during the day. I had tried Schwann's pizza and while yummy I cannot justify spending almost 8 bucks on two tiny little pizzas.

I need to look around here and find other journals to read. Support would be nice around these parts. I feel like I am talking to myself.

But I have managed to stick to my points and exercise this week. I've been really down at the scale not working/ me not losing whichever it is. My husband is convinced its how I stand on it. (eye roll)

Tonight I am splurging with some of my flex points... steak and salad with a ww carrot cake. I hope I start next week feeling better about this all.

My scale has me gaining weight. I've been so good! I've been drinking all the water I am supposed to, eating more fruit and following my points to a T. Today dear people this fat lady is depressed.

Tonight is tomato soup and grilled cheese sandwiches. Sunday nights we used to get fast food so everyone could just chill. I intend on making it my easy night now. I love tomato soup so it isnt like a punishment. I've already done all my point counting for my dinner meal. It seems to go easier if I sit down before I cook and figure it all out.


Although, I am totally craving another taco salad I didnt plan for it this week. I am a creature of comfort. I have foods that I like and that I crave. Taco salads will be my new chips and salsa. I've done good with the sweets because we have made sure to have them on hand. I always account for what I eat. We found a Schwan's ice cream that is 2 points and really fucking good. We also have our 100 calorie packs, I did learn however that the peanut butter cookie ones make me want to throw up an hour after eating them, not the best outcome I would say.

I intend on adding more exercise into my routine this week. I'm not so good at that. But I have to remind myself I've only just begun this journey.

I want to add friends, and have a kickass profile but I am seriously the suck at html. So here I sit drooling over some of the custom layouts I see wishing I was semi-talented in that area. I guess I might have to take the time to actually read how to work Blogger. Sheesh. Mayne I will save my pennies and having someone make me a layout. Naw, I am way too cheap for that.

Last night I made taco salads for dinner. I was shocked at just how delicious it was. I used lean 90/10 beef, lettuce, 2 tablespoons of cheese and an avocado dip I made with the best salsa on the planet.(from a local hole in the wall Mexican place. It gets made fresh everyday. Yum) My teenage daughter thought I looked lame measuring everything out and writing it all down before I ate it, I'll take lame if it means I am going to lose weight. I'm still revealing in the yummy that was that salad. I wish there were leftovers for todays lunch.

I went and bought a scale yesterday. This morning it gave me 2 different weights so I think I need to return it. Bastard scale. First it told be 377 which I would have been ok with since the 376 I wrote as my starting weight was from a Dr. appt. 2 months ago. Then it said 374 which I really liked. Then it said 377 again. Then I wanted to throw it out the window. It is the Taylor Biggest Loser scale that came with a free dvd, screw me for trying to get something for free. ha!

I'm not feeling witty or funny today. My husband was late for work this morning and he managed to wake everyone up. If he was still home I would probably punch him in the nads. (I'm kidding of course ... or am I?) Everyone has had their breakfast except me and I am eating and typing. I think there is some weird rule how you are not supposed to eat and watch TV there might be one about computers too. If there is I am fucked. I do it all the time. I'm ready to start my day albeit a little on the slow side. I may be back to post later this is so cathardic.

First things first. I did laugh at the size of these things. They are tiny and to be honest I don't really like chocolate but I needed some kind of sweet snack occasionally. I decided to try one the other day when it was after dinner and I still needed 5 points. The points calculator I used said the package was 2 points and I will tell you they are totally worth the 2 points. They are GOOD. I am going to head to the store today to see what other things they have and try them.


I'm having a really hard time eating all my points. Last time we did this I had the same problem. This time I have not gone crazy and bought all the fat free stuff I can find. I need those extra points. We have gone down to low fat or reduced fat on most things. I'm hoping to get closer today by adding a few points in with my breakfast (I added a hard boiled egg) and with lunch I will have something with my ham sandwich. Maybe I will have a snack cake.

I need to go buy a scale today. One for fatasses like myself. It must weight at least up to 380 so that I can make sure I am getting the right weight. I also need to buy some measuring spoons, cups etc. that I can use only for my WW stuff.Sounds silly I know but I have to be hyper organized like that. I also need a food scale..... I better write a list.

I used to drink Dr. Pepper. It was my best friend in the morning,night anytime I needed a little pick me up. Then seeing how full of fat it was I stopped drinking it. I still miss it. Then I went to Diet Coke. I kept having chest pains and feeling like utter shit, at one point I was convinced I was going to die of a heart attack. Until I read that caffeine will do that too you. Who would have thunk? Mostly I drink water and wish it was a Dr. Pepper ...except the mornings. I love me some bubbly soda. I wonder if I am alone in the love of bubbles in the morning? I think my mom gave me this disease, as she has always liked a soda in the morning. This is one thing I know eventually I will cut out (just like smoking and Dr. Pepper) but for now it stays as my morning vice.


Normally I do not eat breakfast. Years of never eating it have made me not like it at all. I always end up hungry the whole day and a little on the queezy side. BUT its another one of those things that I know I have to eat it if I want to get healthy. So I am working my way up to a real breakfast. Today I had a banana. I know, not the best of breakfasts but better then the Snickers bites I had at 2 yesterday. I never ate before 2 or 3 and only something shitty because my stomach would get grumbly and mean. My goal tomorrow is to have a oatmeal pouch thingy for breakfast (yes, thats the name of it!) My banana was good and I am sure its got some weird benefit that I will read after I google banana.


The next thing is... will I exercise today? Will I get the Christmas tree down? Will anything get done today? Answers to that mystery later!

You know, the one you look at in the grocery store and think "gross!" or the one you ask your husband "am I that fat?" always getting the "no" answer. I'm the lady your kids laugh at, the one who cannot find clothes that fit her right.

Was I always that lady? Fuck no. I was once a cute chubby but not fat girl. I got pregnant with my first baby at 140 pounds and delivered her at 210. I did stay at that weight for many many years and some how here I am 37 years old wondering wtf happened to me. So this is it. I don't want to be that fatass you laugh at anymore. I am 380 pounds and have no intention of gaining one more pound. Did I just say 380 pounds out loud? That is painful. So it is what it is. This is going to be the place where I talk about my journey. Someday I hope to be brave enough to post pictures of my fat ass but for now you will have to be content with the fact that I just revealed my deepest darkest secret to you.


And now to the rest of my life.. and just so you know my final hoorah is with a Sonic ice cream.

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